Aurélie

I have been writing more recently.

I have been thinking more recently.

I have been reading recently.

I read the play called "Waiting for Godot". It tells a story about how two men spend their time while they are waitng for Godot. They are with each other most of the time, but they always think it would be better if they are apart. I couldn’t address a name for the two men's relationship. Brothers? Friends? Lovers? Strangers or enemies? My teacher drew me an answer with a question, " haven’t you be involved in such a relationship?" I suddenly realized, isnt just like fall in love with someone? Once when you fall in love with someone, you spend a decent amount time with him (her). You live with her, eat with her, sleep with her, talk with her, qurral with her, fight with her. At a point you might start wonder,would it be better if we are apart?

"I fell in love three times in my life." he said. I looked into myself, have I ever be in love? All that so called, "relationship", "boyfriend", "lover", I wonder if they were true. I experienced all that which I think it is too much for a girl at my age to handle. In another way all that experiences perfectly fit an ignorant girl at my age to go through in order to become a woman. To look back in the time, was I really there? Being involved into any sort of relationship made me separated from the person. Because I become too close to the person that I can’t see this person by normal vision any more. The only time that I understand what is going on actually is after the relationship ended. When a heart is full of excitement, wonder, sweetness, hope, the owner of this heart count never look down at the road that he (she) is walking on.

 If a person knows that she will lose her mind in love, will she still fall in love? Or will she be able to keep a clear mind in love? I don’t know. She doesn’t know.

 In the play “Silence”, all the actors and actress are speaking with their own consciousness. Elle, who is a girl in her 20s, recalled her sexual experiences. When she speaks about it, she is almost like reading poetries. She talks about the clouds in the sky, the landlady who talks with her and drinks with her. I was wondering why Ellen could never tell a complete story about herself. The teacher in class pointed out that people who had bad sexual experiences couldn’t remember it completely or clearly. The memories are broken in pieces. They couldn’t narrate what happened, but they tell stories to themselves.

In any male-dominated society, I think that a woman’s sexual experience or sexual opinion is more complicated than a man could imagine. When a young girl starts to open her eyes to the world, it is lucky that the adults or the teens around her don’t perject any sexual behavior on her. As soon as she turns into a teenage, she would starts to wonder about the secret of a person's sexual desire. It will be good if she could get a good direction. Other wise she might experience something, which harms others or herself. As she turns into a woman, she gains knowledge, goes though experiences, listens to stories and reads words. If there is any bad experience during her childhood, teenage years, she needs to cover up the wounds by a lot of work from herself and also her partner. During the time that she is involved in a relationship, she might be forced to have sexual activities by her partner or even something worse. There is no way to change anybody in the world, but we could change ourselves. The only way out is to be careful, stronge, brave and take stratigies to help ourselves rather than waiting for someone for help.

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where does life take you?

 

What is a journey?

A journey is not a trip.
It's not a vacation.

It's a process. A Discovery.

It's a process of self-discovery.

 

A journey brings us face to face with ourselves.
A journey shows us not only the world,
but how we fit in it.

 

Does the person create the journey
or does the journey create the person?

 

The journey is life itself.

 

Where will life take you?